November
5th has come and gone. The week leading up to it I was an emotional
mess, crying all the time but also celebrating my daughter's first
birthday. I was completely exhausted in every way. I didn't really have
time to prepare myself for what I would be feeling. However, it was
comforting just to be around my family. My brother and his family drove
through the night on Saturday just so we all could be together. We
haven't really grieved together as a family since it happened so it was
necessary for our souls.
Sunday night, some
friends of my parents that live here in South Florida put together a
worship night in my father's honor. It was a night to remember, grieve ,
heal and remind ourselves of the gospel. The interesting thing is that
it wasn't necessarily for my family. They would have done this even if
we were unable to come. They missed him and wanted to come together to
worship as he had taught them. That is very special. The people here
have only known my father for 3 years but the stories they told and the
way they spoke of him made it seem like they had known him for years.
Together they made a scrap book full of stories and pictures of my dad
and we are grateful. We thought he was a great man; it nice to know that
others thought the same.
This tragic day is
bookended by two special days. Felicity's birthday on Nov. 2 and my
nephew Augustin's birthday on Nov. 12. Since we were all together we did
a little celebration with them and introduced them to their first
Carvel ice cream cake (a Richardson staple). Right now, their birth is a painful
reminder of my father's absence. I pray and hope that as the years pass
my heart would be thankful for this timing and see it as an act of God's
grace. We are so thankful for our cute crazy kids and wish that my
father were here to enjoy them with us.
The little gang |
... and August just destroyed it |
Felicity was very careful |
At the end of the day, we met some of my mom's friends at the beach to send off paper lanterns in memory of my father. As I looked at the group gathered on the beach, I realized that I year ago I didn't know who most of them were. But as the year went on, these would be the people that have cared for my mom here in South Florida (and many others who are not local). They have welcomed her into their families and have truly loved her in a way that would honor my father. I was comforted to know that not only did these people love my father, they deeply loved my mom and were committed to her.
We have survived the first year. Now we choose to walk in faith trusting that God's plans are good and he still has a purpose for us.
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